Something New.

My name's JD and I'm... a college student.


That still feels weird to say. Well I switched from xanga to this when I saw that my friends sister had one. I started using xanga my freshman year of highschool, and I feel it's only proper to start something else my freshman year of college. Plus, my past is kind of messy, and I need to start fresh. I guess that's what college is about right? Starting fresh. So I'm going to do just that. Another thing is, a lot of people from my past read that xanga...and I want something that not all of them will read. I want something that I can actually put my thoughts in without having to worry about one of them freaking out, because they do all the time. All of my old friends (keep in mind I call them old because I think we've all moved on from each other) find ways to make such meaningless drama out of xanga posts. It's immature. So I'm happy that I've found something that is stress free.

Before I left home I went through my room and I actually threw a lot of things away that, at one point in my life, meant a lot to me. Now, I know that might seem like nothing, but that is a big deal for me. I think I've finally reached the point where I can move on...from all of it. I would always say that I had (which I guess on some level is true) but I'd always wonder how people were doing, wonder what they were doing and think about how things are in their life. Now, I just don't care. I think everyone needs to get to that point where they can just be on their own and...not care. I dont think that's a bad thing. I think it's a good thing. Because caring did nothing but hurt. So I'm finally happy. Happy to be free from worry, free from care. Why does everyone make "caring" out to be some great thing in life. I disagree. Don't get me wrong, I think it's right to care about your family and your close friends, but after those 2...I don't think it's that great. Because what are you supposed to do if you care about someone that doesn't care about you? It hurts. Pretty badly.

Well, I'm off to calculus. I'll probably post more later.